The Morning Cantankerous

Ever since I could remember, I've never been a morning person.
No matter how early I go to sleep, it always takes me a long while to get out of bed. And if I do work up the strength to get up, I'll end up being grumpy most of the morning.
Despite this habit, I do hate waking up late because I feel I'm wasting the day away.
The need to pursue something productive is always an objective I must obtain.
Even if it does not benefit me through financial wealth; the feeling of striving for something constructive to my well being or financial situation always makes me feel content.
For example, work and school are two elements that benefit my budgetary direction while other activities I take part in such as dancing, martial arts, drawing or writing may not.
They say money is the motive but I beg to differ where I believe the true motive is personal development as well as spiritual gain.
Of course, you can always gain currency through your hobbies or passions but that cannot be the only goal as to why anyone aspires to improve themselves through certain endeavors.
Why do I do what I do?
A personal question that I have always pondered from time to time.
Do I have an answer?
...No.
I can't put my actions into words for someone to truly relate and understand why I pursue the life.
Perhaps the reason is to show off? To boost the overrated ego that so many people possess in today's world?
Maybe but we all know this is not true.
Perhaps the reason why I or anyone else undertakes such strenuous pursuits is to attain something money cannot buy.
The money runs deeper than paper.


Quite possibly this is the factor that pushes me to awaken every morning and perhaps the reason why I sleep so late.